Hey-a Tom its Bob, from the office down the hall. It's good to see you buddy how've you been? Things have been ok for me except that I'm a zombie now.

Wow, its been...yeah, its been a while.

So, life has been doing life type of things. Being a bitch, being fun. I've started to see where life is going, and I wouldn't say I'm sad about it, just apathetic. Hopefully I land a gig being a writer or director but other than that it is probably going to boil down to some kind of computer work.

I have to start living it up fast, not because of some carpe di noctem thing, (And yes, I know its night.) but because of this increasing feeling I've been having. I thought it would go away with time, just some paranoia, but its just been growing. I think I'm going to die soon, protecting somebody else. The kicker though? I'm not scared, if anything I feel great, if I had any doubt about getting into heaven, right there is my pass. I don't have a fear of dying, I can't remember a time in which I have. Everybody's got to die sometime, right? Why not use this useless body to take the worst from a charging car heading for my friends? This doesn't mean that I'm going to go out there looking for something to die from, just that I think it's going to happen.

I spent loads of time with my friends this last two weeks, holy hell, it was awesome. We didn't do anything to epic but it still was with them, and that's what matters. I saw many sunrises with them, and then saw a pillow in extreme contact with my face as we all slept till three, yeah, three.

Now, a topic that always seems to show up in these posts, women. Still single, but it's not that big of an issue, not like I need one to go on, I'm still me with or without one. I know there's a girl who takes interest in me, but hell, I think I'm just second best with her out of anger and frustration. Another, well, that's just confusing as hell, talked to her about it at the party, guess shes just lonely. Hopefully it works out ok with her and whatever shes after, but I have no idea if I'm even in that picture.

Schools tomorrow...ya know...I don't care, I know I'm going to wake up, feel like I have a hangover, stumble blindly to the shower most likely wrecking my foot on some hidden obstacle, and make it through the day. I'd have to say the saddest part of it all is leaving school and seeing the sun already starting to set, way to imprison us all fucking day you assholes; because I didn't have anything better to do with my daylight, now I have to be a vampire. I think I'm going to miss breakfast, I never get breakfast during the week, winter break supplied me with copious amounts of french toast. Now? Now I get empty stomach until lunch, food that may not even be considered so to put inside it, then home. My house is usually empty from 3:30 to 1:00 a.m. so I get to rule the place, but it also shoots socialization in the face and makes it pretty lonely.

I can't say that I'm exactly pleased with where my life is right now, but I can't help but look forward to where its going.

Later!