Tuesday, September 29, 2009

Went to the doctor, and I asked her, to make this stuff...Got medication, a new addiction, fuckin' thanks alot.

Second hour seems to be a popular place to update. It supplies me with a nice amount of bordem.

I went to heaven, I couldnt get in, for what I have done...I said "Forsake me" He said "Your crazy, you were to much fun."

That girl I was talking about for a sec I think likes me, poor thing, she has no idea. Also, shes to young. (Freshman)

Friday seems so far away. The sleep deprivation experiment starts tonight. Its going to be hell to get through, but Im certain that it will prove to be a worthwhile experiment. I guess Im just going to see how real the halucinations become. Perhaps reality will warp like I said. Anybody who knows me, be wary for the next two days, I may not be myself, and I may not be where I think I am.

I really want people to start knowing who I am, and I want them to like me, and I want to be that coy, flirty, mischief maker. Maybe I can wake up as a different person after this experiment.

Stay tuned for more details!

Monday, September 28, 2009

In a toga...With flowers.

Well, seems like another second hour update. Im currently in a toga. Yep, a toga. Its actually quite fun though. Its great to see other people all dressed up for it to. Only seniors get to wear them ^^.

Anyway, I've been talking to this girl, she seems nice, but shes to young for me. She seems kind of nieve to the ways of the world yet anyway.

Listening to this demented clown/circus music, its creepy, but makes me feel homicidal, yay! Now John Lennons on...Damnit, way to kill the mood. Eh, screw you, back to the normal blog song. A.m. 180.

I'm hesitant on the sleep deprevation experiment just because I dont want to go in dragging ass tired. I need to monitor how much time it takes, not just guess, for the halucinations to come.

So, other than the toga, its been pretty uneventful. Havent stayed at home for shit this weekend. Always out and about. Tried to go to seven gables, we all chickened out at the gate.

Thursday, September 24, 2009

You seem to have a Machete in your leg.

Well, it is second hour in school, guess who doesn't want to be here. Yep, me. Ive been thinking more on the idea of sleep deprivation. Perhaps you can get to a point, where the delusions become so intense, that it actually provides complete escape from reality. Sure, that sounds a bit far fetched, but theoretically possible. If enough aspects of reality get warped, than it ceases to be reality right?

Sleep, it still doesn't go easy for me. Every night I toss and turn, stare at the ceiling, and constantly check the clock until around 2:00 a.m. I then wake up about 2 or 3 minutes before my alarm goes off, that, is a terrible feeling. Its not that I'm not tired, I'm exhausted, I just cant sleep.

Hoffman...Hes rambling... Gotta go.

Monday, September 21, 2009

I think that guy was choking on a noise.

I've been crashing at friends places for days on end. I think I've only stayed home for a total of about three hours this entire three day weekend. Yeah, thats the only way to go. I've been having a more, care-free kind of life as of late. Not one shred of homework this entire trimester so far. The sleep deprivation experiment will be held after an experiment where I listen to a single song while I sleep to see how it will effect my mood for the next day. Since its only a four day week, the song list is as follows, Night 1: A.M. 180 - Granndaddy, Night 2: Kidnap the Sandy Claus - Korn, Night 3: Undone (The Sweater Song) - Weezer, Night 4: Metroid Cranial Remix - Armcannon. So, the first nights cheery, night two is mischevious, night three is dreary/drowsy, and night four is terrifying. Gonna see how it goes. Ill keep ya posted.

I keep wanting some cataclysmic event to happen that captivates the entire world, but its still not coming. Maybe soon, maybe soon, I can dream.

Yeah, short blog today I guess, later.

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

His head was a T.V. that picked up nothing but static and techno...

I decided that home was not a good option after school today, just did not feel it. So I ended up going to hang out with some friends, we went to the mandatory "Jamaican me crazy Wednesday" and got wired later on that day, all in all, it was a physically quiet day.

Also, I discovered that it takes on an average of 40 hours of sleep deprivation for hallucinations to start taking effect, this, means I have a new project. You see, I'm not willing to set idly by and let life go by me the same way it does daily, no, that just...That's just wretched, and honestly, a waste of time. Its not going to be the everyday things you remember when you finally reach the end of your road, it is going to be however, the crazy things, those things you probably should not do because of the health issues, but like I said, big deal. Ill keep you all updated on this little experiment.

I've been thinking still, more and more each day, (And my thirst still is not quenched) where is the catastrophic and life changing event that is supposed to involve the world? That one thing that spires us all into some sort of extreme confusion along with terror? Well, I guess in theory its all around, but that's the lame version.

I guess in short, I just want a more interesting take on life, and no matter what, just like my thirst, this yearning will not be quenched.

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

Don't worry, thats just the nerves dying.

I really don't have to edit more than a few words of tonight's post to make it so fittingly true to my situation, and I guess, that situation is no more than life. Yeah, that's about right.

You see, the world is set up to fall towards an inevitable doom of some grave and catastrophic fate, and there is absolutely nothing we can do to stop it; however, you can push the people currently on the edge clear the-fuck over. Thus, one more to your army. It's quite simple really, open the eyes of the already dis-pleased to the true light of things, and then show them a way to alleviate the way things work. In the end, you should have an effective army of this type.

"Man, I see in society (<--- edited word) the strongest and smartest men who've ever lived. I see all this potential, and I see squandering. God damn it, an entire generation pumping gas, waiting tables; slaves with white collars. Advertising has us chasing cars and clothes, working jobs we hate so we can buy shit we don't need. We're the middle children of history, man. No purpose or place. We have no Great War. No Great Depression. Our Great War's a spiritual war... our Great Depression is our lives. We've all been raised on television to believe that one day we'd all be millionaires, and movie gods, and rock stars. But we won't. And we're slowly learning that fact. And we're very, very pissed off."


So in the end, you will perhaps have a place of high power, maybe a position of fear, a figure on par with the standings with pestilence and the other three horsemen, yes, that is the way to finally unleash the true carnal and primal abilities. Some of us have just already unlocked this ability.

Monday, September 14, 2009

Some of us, will never sleep again.

So, I've been reviewing my life as of late, and its getting kind of weird. For example, I forget where I am at random times throughout the day, (Which is hell to conceal at school, you just have to pray you don't freak out when you re-surface.) I'm CONSTANTLY thirsty, yet no matter what I drink, or how much of it I drink, its never quenched. Insomnia, lots and lots of insomnia, and it just keeps getting worse, I'm falling into a routine of finally sleeping at 3 am-ish and getting up at a 5:30, its not because I want to, I just cant sleep anymore.

Lifes been getting a bit more, how would I say, entertaining? With the forgetting locations portion, I get a little surprise now and then, with the insomnia, I get warped vision, slight hallucinations, and a bit of a lucid-life style. Sure, there are a few drawbacks, but nothing I cant manage.

I had a bit of an epiphany today, or perhaps you would call it a prophetic proverb, whatever, "The deteriating or crippled brain, supplies one with endless possibilities, even if these events never actually lave the mental confinement of the hosts mind." Simply put, I can escape in my own head.

The people of the world never lift their heads from the ground long enough to actually examine, come to terms, and seperate from the filth and pestillence that spews from the pores of others. We cannot escape, we cannot destroy, but we can erradicate, and that, my dear friends, is all that one ever needs to achieve in life.

Saturday, September 12, 2009

Why? Because you sent a child to the crusades!!! THATS WHY!

Well, lets get some damn facts straight, I'm Logan, I'm 17, and I love being bat-shit insane around people, lets just hope for all our sakes that these people are my friends and not somebody that took a bad stroll down main street just in time to see me fleeing from the bloody mess left in the liquor store. *Breathing here, holy shit.* OK! I guess I'm that guy who took the idea you had for Friday night fun, ran it through the mill, and had it come out the other end with "bad idea" written all over it. Since I live in Michigan, I think it gives me the right to be paranoid about the mitten state balling up into a fist and crushing us all, eh, whatever, we had a good run yeah?! YEAH!

So, my last year in high school just started, yeah it sucks to be there but I have some pretty face-roll classes. (For those of you out there that don't get that, it basically means you can put a pair of goggles on and roll/smash your face on the desk, while still passing.) I guess life is gettin' pretty heated up, excitement, drama, and odd blood spots on the hallway walls, weird...somebody left their skull-caked sledge hammer in my locker, oh well.

I guess this will be a trash can for my mind-vomit. Have fun taking a peak into the dementia people!

Thus, the blog is created, named? "And then I guess I must have snapped, because I grabbed a baseball bat."